I Can Do It!

I can do it! Words you probably wouldn't hear out of my mouth too often, but all too often come from my heart, and not in a good way. Have you ever struggled with holding onto something seemingly small, but big enough to become an idol in your life? Big enough to make a dramatic negative impact in your walk with the Lord? I have. I could tell you thousands of ways the Lord has dramatically provided above and beyond what I have ever needed and in many cases, what I just wanted. Ironically enough, this is the area where I struggle the most. I struggle to instinctively trust that God will provide, I struggle with confessing that I am struggling and not openly giving God the glory that comes by letting others see his provision. I struggle with not working, and "providing" things for my family that I easily could, if I was working. What I really mean is that I struggle with being my own savior. Working, making money and providing "things" doesn't impact my family for eternity. Who I am matters more than what I can "do" to provide. My "job" is to point my family to Christ in every aspect of my life and teach them to look to Him. What a privilege I take for granted far too often.

Thank you, Lord for your conviction, forgiveness and grace.

Isaiah 43:10-12

English Standard Version (ESV)

¹⁰ “You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord,
    “and my servant whom I have chosen,
that you may know and believe me
    and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed,
    nor shall there be any after me.
¹¹ I, I am the Lord,
    and besides me there is no savior.
¹² I declared and saved and proclaimed,
    when there was no strange god among you;
    and you are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and I am God.

Daily Adventures

People who think being a follower of Christ and surrendering your life to the will of God is boring, have obviously not truly surrendered. Being a follower of Christ will keep you on your toes in every area of your life. There is daily sanctification and growth, and with growth come growing pains. I am grateful for a God who not only rules and reigns but loves us and desires genuine relationship with his bride. Some of the areas that God has been stretching me in are ones very dear to my heart and areas that I continually need to surrender, sometimes on a daily basis. If i am to trust God with my eternity, why am I struggling to immediately trust Him with my today, tomorrow, future? Am I seeking independence from God by not trusting Him to provide for me? Do I really believe He is more than enough? Can I say I desire to seek Him with my whole heart? Thankful for a gracious and loving God that wants better things for me than I could ever imagine. Praying for wisdom and direction.